Kamis, 20 September 2012

Akhir Pekan

Bertemu sabtu itu seru,
Ia menyapa dengan manis,
seolah tahu bahwa aku perlu liburan setelah stress berat senin hingga jumat.
"ayo bagus, mari kita bersenang-senang, nonton film, jalan-jalan, makan-makan, bermalas-malasan seeeeepuasnya... Semuanya boleh!"
Aaaah Ia tahu aku cinta hari sabtu, padahal aku lahir dihari rabu.

Malam minggupun tiba,
Aku merasa memasuki pertapaan panjang, sebuah penghayatan akan indahnya akhir pekan... Akhir pekan yang tak kan kusia-siakan tiap momennya.

Ketika sampai dihari minggu,
the fun is still in the air! Bersenang-senang, sepuasnya, segila-gilanya!

Ketika senja pun tiba,
😳
Terasa sedih dan sendu
Ku tau hal ini pasti datang...

Why people put saturday and sunday too close, while they put monday and friday so far .__.

Failure

Nobody likes failure, but maybe somebody likes to laugh at us when we failed (maybe, but figure out how very negative-thinking I am).
But thats about somebody else, what about ourself?

Nobody likes failure.

Approved, achieved, passed, accomplished and succeed are words that required us to be perfect on doing/implementing our assignment/task. But what happened when we failed?

Having failure feels like somebody pointed a gun to your face, and you feel helpless....

Anger,
sad,
confusion,
denial, hopeless and many negative and desperate emotional words we can mentioned. World felt like torn apart, crushed, no favorite songs can cure the pain :(

Its hard, very hard some said.

Negative emotion is overwhelmed, and suspicion is around (see the word at the opening, that even I thought that somebody out there is happy with my failure!!).
What a toxic mind!

And the process continue to analyze what's wrong with it. I think there's two aspect that we can put the blame is, internally mine and external factor.

Internal factor is about what's wrong with us:
Did I well-prepared for this task?
What effort has I've done to achieve it?

External factor is about outside factor that may caused failure, anything can be the cause, mythical, irrational, coincidence or rational-logical reasons can be made, but I prefer to make things simple.

Dont compare yourself to other,
Everybody is unique, even twins are unidentic. So nobody has the same skills or intelligent level to other.

This is the best that I can do,
Remember those effort that you've put so hard, very hard to finished it.

Grateful for what you've achieve,
Yeah, there's always comparison between A and B etc, but still be grateful for any kind of small things that you've achieved today. Health and being surrounded by family and friends are small things that might be missed from our eye sight.

I just read a blog from Dondi Hananto, about capital for enterpreneur. See the notes here: http://www.dondihananto.com/. In the encore, he wrote in Bahasa Indonesia and I summarize it in English: "don't blame yourself or external factor, but focused on the solution of the problem"

I read that and WOW! He's god damn right.
myself, somebody or anything can be blamed, but it wont change the previous result. So its better to take the responsibility, not to blame somebody or the situation and start focused on the solution, how to solve/re-encounter/change the situation/problem!

Like Incubus said: "Just a phase, and it soon be over"

Menggigil di Melbourne

Hawa dingin
Perlahan,
Merayap,
Mengendap,
Mengalir, membungkus tubuh,
Membekukan sendi, mematirasakan jari-jari,
Membekukan bibir,
Membekukan setiap tarikan nafas,
Dingin, menusuk kulit menghujam tulang.

Butir air terasa seperti jarum,

Mengigil,
Gemeretak sekujur tubuh,
Semakin ku berlari, semakin kuat hujaman jarum-jarum beku ini,

Kemana ku harus pergi?
Dimanakah sumber kehangatan itu?
Dimana?